Single

I hate to be alone. I really do. I hate to admit it, because I feel like any self-respecting gypsy would love to be alone, and I hate to admit I'm not a gypsy. But I really don't like it. A feeling of weird emptiness gets into me, I get a bit frantic. I can't settle my mind when I'm alone, it flies all over the place.

I get inspired with a million ideas I can't do by myself, and find something to stop me from anyting i could attempt to do alone..

I'm alone right now, and as usual, perfectly lost. I've cleaned my room, checked Facebook and The Sartorialist, then went to play guitar (excuse to avoid: no tuner), then to go sew (excuse to avoid: sewing scissors missing). I'm tempted to actually go watch TV, which I've prolly only done two or three times in my life, just because I need the company of a voice.

I'm not sure what that says about me, but I'm sure its not good. Everyone needs resources inside themselves. Its good to enjoy your own company. What if I just don't like myself enough to want to be alone with my thoughts? They're too spattered and foolish, and I get discouraged. For me to like being alone, my thoughts would actually have to mean something. Or I would need to be creating- if I'm creating, its okay. My creation-in music or rhyme or art-will keep me company and make me feel worthwhile. But my creating spurts are getting less and less...in fact, they're downright scarce now.

What's left is this outside of me- pretty big eyes I've made up so when I pass a mirror I can like myself, messy hair, a sense of helplessness at seconds slipping away, a talk with Mark in the back of my mind, some slice of a song that I decided I really like, a compulsive urge to look through haute couture lookbooks, and an empty house. I don't like it.

Song of the Day

Carried Away

by

Marc Scibilia

As Marc is local to Nashville, I doubt anyone has heard of him before. I was introduced to Marc through a friend who knew the guy who directed this music video, Julian Smith. He's got a Bob Dylan feel to him with his easy going lyrics and wild hair.

My friend says she's gonna marry him...that'd be fine with me! He's lovely. This video is almost as cute as the song itself.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAZ4ze8mvws

"Movie Girl"

Having no friends turns you into a movie watching freak. After work, everyone else drives off to their parties and local bars, stays out till 3 am and stumbles home drunk. I clock out, blow a kiss to Jared, and drive home to a movie. Sunny started calling me Movie Girl because every night when I leave, I sit on his desk while he counts out my cash to remit for the day. I tell him about my life, and he tells me about his. We compare school schedules, and I tell him he's my hero: Sunny just turned 2o, but he's manager. He works 45 hours a week, works full time, and just bought a house for himself and his widowed mother. Anyway, he always asks me what movie I'm gonna watch. Usually I go to the library before work to pick out my selection of the day.

I have discovered I have no patience for serious movies. Real life is serious. When I want a movie, I want an escape. I want to see what the world should be like, and go to bed with happy thoughts. I don't want to be shown how dark and gloomy everything is. I'm not saying I'll never watch a serious movie, I do. But they have to be really, really good. Gorgeous cinematography, heartfelt acting, and a really thoughtful message. If I'm not gonna get these things from a serious movie, I don't wanna waste my time.

I'd rather sink into a silly, sweet, happy movie. My brother looks for "colorful" movies...I'm with him. The movies with bright sets: too green grass, too blue ocean, too fantastically color coordinated outfits. I like the movies where they break out into perfect dance steps, or start singing and the whole town joins in. I like movies where the guy and the girl just look like they're gonna live happy. I love clever movies where everybody has the perfect snappy response.

Don't give me something too serious- I live in the real world for that. If I'm gonna watch a movie, sitting all alone on the couch, I want it to make me smile.

Just a few classic smile-worthy movies (many more to come!):

The Sound Of Music

Knight's Tale

Truman Show

High School Musical

King And I

Benny and Joon

Something Beautiful Of The Day

Ah, the redheads. I think there's a part in every American girl that wishes she had flaming red hair. There's something so big and bouncy and brave about it. I feel like a girl with red hair could never be beaten.

Lily Cole is probably the more popular and famous redheaded model, but she's not my favorite. I prefer Cintia Dicker, with her cute nose and perfect lips. I love her feminine look. Of course, nothing can possibly top her amazing hair...

Song of the Day

Soul Sister

by Train

Train is an alt-rock band similar to Counting Crowes. They began in San Fransisco a few years ago, getting some popularity with their hit "Meet Virginia" (a song that I also love). Their biggest hit to date has been Drops Of Jupiter (so tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet..)

Hopefully this song will be even bigger...its light and cheerful and the beginning line, "your lipstick stains, on the front lobe of my left side brain," is absolutely phenomenal.

http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#train%20soul%20sister

Just Plain Kate

So it's been nine days since i've last written. I thought I'd be posting every day. But after a long day of school and work, I'd log onto Taken Internally feeling absolutely drained. I had no brilliant pieces of information to share with the world....all I wanted was to sleep, and to tell somebody about my latest school problems. I couldn't put words into meaningful, profound little tidbits to inspire the world with, I couldn't even begin to sort out the random billion feelings inside of me.

Kate is just a normal girl. She has nothing exceptional to share with the world. Kate doesn't have well-planned lectures every night. Most nights, she doesn't even understand herself.

This revelation was rather dissapointing at first. I'd somehow hoped that becoming Kate would make me a more prolific and talented writer. Obviously, that hasn't happened. Kate isn't some genius inside me waiting to be unleashed-Kate is just me. All me.

And so, here I am. I will share my little thoughts. The ones I know aren't perfectly written. I'll let everyone know that I'm too involved in thinking about Sean's muscles to think of something profound. Hey, that's me.

From here on out, welcome to Just Plain Kate. She's got no agenda, she's not a good poet, she's not that cool. She has lots on her mind, and she's going to let you know.

That's my new goal, for Kate to be a girl that you can really get to know. Maybe you'll come to care for her. Maybe you'll relate to my mind, and maybe you'll find a new friend in Kate. I hope so. Because as much as I'd like to be an impressive JD Salinger or Tolstoy, I can't be anything but Just Plain Kate.

Song of the Day

Here Comes Your Man

by Meaghan Smith

As she grew up Ontario, Meaghan was surrounded by music. Her dad was an upright bass player in a band, and "mum", Meaghan says, was a piano teacher.

Her music is inspired by the music of the '20s, '30s, and '40s, and old time musicals.

Here Comes Your Man was featured on the movie 500 Days Of Summer, which is where I discovered it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3KdymSESCs

Side note: This song is actually a remake of an older version done by The Pixies. I don't like it quite as well, but here's the link anyway:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hvi4iA3PnKE

Which do you like better?