Because I'm so "big", I'm also on the recieving end of extremes in emotion. Some people absolutely love me, others can't stand me. The ones who couldn't stand me upset me horribly. I wanted absolutely everyone to love me; and when I found they didn't, I was quite distressed. I tend to be a pessimist, so if I realize I'm unliked, I immediately assume its me in the wrong. I must be annoying, frustrating, anything. Thus, I found myself often hurt, and sure there was something wrong with me.
I hate most people. Most people are just stupid. If you ask me, about 98% of the world is stupid. They are blind, shallow followers who don't open their eyes to the amazingness of the world around them. They settle for less, and don't even bother to look beyond the color of their chucks and how many sugars in their Starbucks. It just makes me mad!
Everyone wants to be accepted and looked up to, and so they follow someone they think is cool. Who is following someone they think is cool. Who is following someone they think is cool. Who is following Britney Spears. Who is running into a wall. I hate it!
I'd never connected these two thoughts in my head before, but my friend did yesterday. (Many apologies to those noticing that my "good ideas" typically come from others-I'm just not that smart!) Why should I get so hurt when people don't like me, if they're in the 98% that are stupid people anyway!
That seems really obvious, right? Somehow, I never saw it. But its wonderful because its just so freeing-- I don't have to be so hurt and concerned that there's something wrong with me, I can just say "whatever, I'm not on your Stupid Person train." and keep going! Its utterly lovely.
Just to share with any other discouraged people out there who are letting their personalities be tampered with. The masses are dumb, and your person should not be held to their ideas.
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